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Home Everywhere Live SomewhereEnjoy every moment 4/5/2007 Another NightIt's been a while. i realize i am not much writting type eventually.But somehow i m in the mood right now.i feel sick recentlly.it is the first time i got sick since i been here which is odd,because it happens all of sudden. something just can not be prefigued. maybe it has been under a lot of stress since i got here. my body just waiting for the beter timing to explode. when i was lay in the bed i thought maybe sick is the sign which is i am totally getting use to live in here. my body dont want to hold any longer. i ve been here one year which is freak me out. i never thoght time will going so fast. every single day is not enough for me. i am not feel much , i am not learn much, and i am not live much. i had moments,but just moments. at the moment , i will feel i am actually living in a whole new life . which is good ,that means there s a chance , there s a change , there s a challenge, and there always a hope . just need to find it,feel it and grab it. 12/16/2006 Merry Christmas Christmas is coming. Are you ready,friend? You have no idea how much i miss you guys.Back in shanghai we had such a good time.How are you doing these days? Please tell me as feedback. I really happy to see it.
I am fine now. I kinda' getting use to here. Everyday is almost same to me. Time just going whitout notice. Sometimes when i lay in bed think about it .That's scare hell of me. 25 years old and having nothing. Do you feel me ,friend?
Anyway,just wanna know how you guys going,is everything all right back in shanghai? Merry x'mas and have wonderful life.TO YOU AND FOR ME. 7/10/2006 I find myself just filling my timeI just finished my language study. Next step will be UNI. It's just like dream. Somedays i feel just like shit. Somedays i wanne quit. I was fucked up. I just wanne be normal a bit. 6/5/2006 I Wanne Go HomeNo matter in NZ or Wellington..I wanna go home...uhm Home. May be A million people surrounded by , however, I still feel all alone just wanna go home. I miss you, you know?
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you each one a line or two. I'm fine, how are you? I would send them but I know that it's just not enough. My words were cold and flat and you deserve more than that. I'm lucky I know. But I wanna go home. I got to go home. Let me go home. I'm just too far from where you are. I wanna come home. And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life. It's like I just stepped outside. When everything was going right and I know just why. I could not come along with you .This was not my dream. But you always believed in me... I'll be home tonight. I'm coming back home in my dream. 5/26/2006 Come from hell tomorrowObviously we all had a dark time of life. I hope my one not gonna be so long. I know exactly if not being able to pass my IELTS exam proved an obstacle to my career. I try my best for it,but sometimes i still feel that's complicated. However,it's the door which is i must enrol. Living in this planet means sometime you have to do something, even it's ridiculous! Cause i am so insignifcant for this society. That means i have to pander to the crap. i've been used to change my opinion when i wanne get something from others. Anyway now days is the time of shame, then i'll control the opptunity. 2/13/2006 Do you know the rules If you don't know the rules. Please fuck off.
If you think it's unfear. Please fuck off.
If you don't like here. Please fuck off.
What can i do? Stay here for fighting. Until i can change something. Every beginning is hard, even you don't know the rules. But it's doesn't matter, somebody always do what is hard things. Sometimes they will hurt your feeling. Sometimes they will make trouble. Even they will pay no attention to you. You know it's just trainning. Come on and enjoy life despite hardships! 1/30/2006 Such A Hot Today is the hotest day when i have been in wellington. In this place sun is so close. i can't open my eyes without sunglasses. I have't bring my cap. From this monent i think i did repentant of my folly. How stupid! But when i put what i want into my luggage suitcase i did put my cap. Then there was something happend unbeleiveable in the airport. I had promble with my luggage, it's too heavy. I had to take something off. That's why my cap abandoned by its boss. At that time i thought that nothing important.But now how repentant am i! Repent of my sins and ask God's forgiveness.
God please give a cap to me! I don't care its colour. I don't care its look like. Just a cap! It's nothing for you. Are you listenning? Why can't you rescue me cause you've got all i need! |
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